No, I talked to her, she has not got her replies from the universities. Most people have 0 or only 1 offer. People only tend to get all their replies by Jan/Feb. The most offers someone I know has is three, but for maths they tend to come later.

As I said, I must assume the worst, that they will all treat me like F did.

Well, you can do that, or you can be more positive.

You should work on that being alone problem. Immerse yourself in mathematics during those times. Keep your mind off yourself and your situation.

R is a possibility, if not, another will come soon enough.

That only works for so long.

Of course, it is something you have to exercise to get stronger. Try to increase your focus, that keeps your mind from wandering. The easiest way to focus on something is to concentrate on what you love most. For me it is mathematics and I can work on it from when I get up to when I go to sleep. Taking only small breaks to eat and rest, You see I have no one at the moment either. My gf left me for someone else and my relatives do not care whether I live or die. Also, I am in constant pain due to my back and left hand. If I can focus through all that, so can you.

Her dating a friend before means nothing to you.

You have to realize that every girl you date probably dated someone you are friendly with or will be. You can not help his feelings, that is his job. If they are no longer going together she is fair game.

Interesting question. Let me ask you a hypothetical question: If that girl loved you and you loved her what would you do then?

Well, if that guy is still around then that is a better reason for leaving her alone.

You mean that maniac is still around and you are even thinking slightly of going after her??!!

It seems to me that your only real problem is that you have not learned to control your eyeballs.

Very good! You learn quickly. But when Helga has Thor or worse Loki for a jealous boyfriend it pays to steer clear of Helga.

People get out of prison on parole you know. They usually come looking for old girlfriends.

You have no idea why she went out with him?

Many girls are attracted to psychopaths. Gangsters have tons of girlfriends. To tell you how warped some of their so called brains are, I was the toughest kid in the neighborhood. I was also the most vicious. Still, many of them told me I was too nice???!!!

They would never tell me or any other guy what they thought he is doing wrong. They are much less communicative and sensitive then modern literature tries to make us believe.

I discovered for myself what they meant but it took many years.

Probably even worse.